New reality

Haha! Today I began a lifestyle change program at church, definitely NOT a diet (don't they all say that?) called First Place 4 Health, and the idea is spiritual, physical, emotional and mental balance, arrived at by giving Christ First Place in my life. Well, the "haha" part was weighing in on "their" scale, which, (gasp!) had me at a whopping 193.1! Now I know it's only a few pounds up from my home scale, AND I was completely clothed in my church suit, which weighs a little more than my birthday suit, which is how I usually weigh in...So there is my new reality. OK.

I'm really looking forward to taking back control, no I mean giving up control, in this very unique study. I did a similar program in 2000 and had a bunch of success, but the idea of constantly relinquishing control to God, to allow Him first place, to trust His best for my life, well, it's something I forget because I'm impatient and I want things MY way. And I also want that donut, or that scoop of peanut butter, or that Mr. Softee, or just about anything else I want to make me feel good. But in the long run, it doesn't really satisfy, it's just a momentary desire fulfilled, and then oftentimes it makes me feel worse, because I know that it's that very lack of self control that pisses me off.

Anyway, it's always good to be more aware, and I do fully intend to do this study and benefit from it, yea change my LIFE as a result. So who's with me?!?! Yeah, it's hard not to feel a teensy bit "but what if...." because I've been there already, been up and down like a rollercoaster, been over the moon when I'm feeling fit and my clothes fit nicely, and then feel down in the dumps when I can't wear this pair of pants or when this skirt sits nicely under my boobs instead of on my hips like it should!

I will endeavor to seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, giving Him First Place in my life, and see if he doesn't "pour me out a blessing." Because, after all, God is Good.