Sucks. What started out as a great day at Ladies Bible Study, learning about our Fall study "Crazy Love" ended with a big, stupid fight with my husband, unrelated to this whole challenge. A few weeks ago Pastor Ayers preached on "joy stealers" and gave "People" as one of the potential joy stealers in our lives. I do let people steal my joy. Sometimes when Jack is the least bit challenging I just throw in the towel, get irritated, say screw it, and get grumpy. Why do I do that? Tim and I were talking about the steps I plan to take to accomplish this goal, this challenge, and I got all "Whoa is me" on him, lots of negative talk about how I can't do it, I've tried and failed so many times before, why should this time be any different..blah blah blah....SOS. Ugh. So I was hoping that these emotions would stay away for at least a LITTLE while, not the second day of the challenge!! Is there hope for me?!
As far as eating, what did I eat today? A little yogurt, half a bagel with an egg on it, stupid "non stick" pan ruined my egg. leftovers for lunch, a salad and sandwich for dinner. No exercise, except for chasing after the kids on their bikes. And then an argument and my husband is pissed and leaving town for two days. Great. Wife of the Year Award.
Ugh, I hope no one reads this entry. Negative self talk - sick of it. How do I kick it? It's the only way to conquer the psychological drama of the whole body image/weight loss issue. Wasn't I a happy girl, loving myself just YESTERDAY?
Tomorrow is a new day. Let's try again.
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How is it that you think that you have failed. Have you looked in the mirror lately. You look wonderful. Everyday is about fine tuning and taking our challenges to the next level. A few years ago, you toned up and shed a good amount of weight. You have maintained it and now are ready for the next level. Don't let lies bring you down. As for a plan, don't you get a bit of a game plan this Sunday? Be patient and do not sabatoge yourself.
ReplyDeletespoken like a wise sensei, grasshhopper. Thank you, Jen. I'm glad I can count on you to encourage me.
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